You grab everything out , and you closed your eyes ,
you cried and you wish that this things would not happen again ,
but it did. How come? and why? you tend to ask that question to yourself,
you began to wonder and only hope that things would get better tomorrow,but it did't.
You're pissed off by all the people around you , how you wish you could run somewhere far or
maybe to your favourite place and then it felt like , you dont want to go back home and spent all day
by yourself.
Yet , you still hope for the best , you cried,you plead , you prayed , you asked god for help.
Unfortunately , non work out , You thought things can be more much brighter ,
but instead it just crash through you stiff walls,
You stayed calm an patient ,
accept the fate that
had givren by
god.
After all this time that i've tried,
im sorry to say , im moving nowhere. I feel like going back to th past
wherbyi used to be a girl , that was full of hope and faith.
Im still searching for that spark that was once i had in me.
It hurts and it sucks. It was beyond average.
I smiled , i laugh.
Deep down , i just feel like pulling my love ones and just say what/ how i feel inside
Sometimes , i went to the park for a reason,alone or with friends.
Mostly , you feel comfortable when your girlfriends are around.
My Hockey Mates,SARS members, those 24 hours peeeps which is much very irksome but fun to be with.
And Radhi too , Oh how i wish he was in the same school with me , but neh .
Well , im sick now , seriously ,
stupid idiotic me , i've should had listen to MieraKay ,
see , now im having fever,flu & cough.
Hell yeah , and tomorrow is the first paper for EOY ,English .
A very essential subject that will determine wether or not you are going to promoted to sec 4 or gonna be retain,.
Gosh i had that word,retained. It sounds irritating and annoying .
I dont know why im feeling down , but seriously , playing in the rain just now,
it clears my mind off and drinking coffee ice blend while typing this,
makes me feel a little bit better.
I am gonna mug on my subject papers now.
OMG , My school is damn fast.
And mama have not decided on the Hockey Trip To KL. its like wtf.
It means alot to me & my team.
Talking about team. We're sec 3 badges ,
are drifting :/
deep down i miss each one of you ,
the girls,SyaSya Rifqah,Yi Qing,,Mia,Amalina,MeeraMeyy,Syazzy & MieraKay.
The Boys,
GuanZhi ,Umar,Akid,Raihan,Ashraf,John,especially Elfy , :( where have you been my dearest ? do you know how much we miss ya?
And neh , i dont miss Kumar & Qyff cause we're in the same class :P *blueck*
HAHA !
Things are getting weirder now.
i dont know how ,
but somehow,
i just knoew.
its getting much harder
but i know ,
i can get through this,
cause i am strong and i can stand by my own without no one by my side
:'/
Yesterday , outing with Sports School peeps , the footballers and netballers.
Had much fun with R.
I upload photos soon yeah
:/ bye.
My days are cold,
hear me loveones .
:'( hais.
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