IM SORRY AH IM NOT A PERFECT DAUGHTER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aku , anak kau yang sumpah tak gune ni , mintak maaf ! aku ni KURANG PANDAI . ade kau support aku ? bile aku betol betol nak kau? Kawan ngan cikgu je. Sakit hati . I know i should;t have shouted at you and sid that harsh words. But i can't keep it any longer . i need you my beloved parents? cant you understand?! yes i've gone far because of you , that i've known and had always appriciatted. BUT ! i need you support and encouragement . I dont know la!!!!! BRING ME SOMEWHERE FAR , I WANT TO BE ALONE FOR A MOMENT , WITH NO ONE BESIDE ME , CRY ON MY OWN. LET GOD HEAR ME CRY. I KNOW ITS A TEST FOR ME . WANT TO BE ALONE ! "AS EXPECTED" WHAT THE..... ! I CRIED FOR THE WHOLE ONE WEEK , DID'T SLEEP WELL , I DID'T EVEN PLAY WELL FOR MY GAME ! CAUSE I WAS THINKING ABOUT YOU , MOM AND DAD. YOU ! I JUST HOPE YOU READ IT. HAVE YOU SEEN ME PLAYED? NO ! HAVE YOU SEEN ME WORK HARD? NO . HAVE YOU SEEN ME STUDYING INSIDE MY ROOM? NO . HAVE YOU EVER ASKED ABOUT WHAT I WANT? NO ! THE ANSWER WOULD BE , I DONT WANT ANYTHING BUT YOU , SUPPORTING ME. HELL YEAH IM 15 , IT DOES'NT MEAN YOU CAN STOP ENCOURAGING ME. SO WHAT IM THE 2ND IN THE CHILD. I ADMIT LAH , I DONT ALWAYS GET ATTENTION FORM YOU GUYS , INSTEAD YOOU GAVE IT TO BRO AND YOUNGER SISTER,FAIR, I UNDERSTAND BUT I NEED YOU TOO AND YES I DO UNDERSTAND THAT ITS HARD HAVING 6 CHILDREN . I WAS THE ONE WHOM SHOULD BE THE ROLE MODEL FOR MY YOUNGER SISTER, BUT THEN , IT TIRNED ANOTHER WAY ROUND. BUT I PROMISE YOU , MARK MY WORD YOU BELOVED PARENTS ! I PROVE TO YOU WITH OR WITHOUT YOUR SUPPORT I WILL DO WELL FOR MY UPCOMING TEST AND EXAMS. YOU MAY THINK I AM A HAPPY GIRL WHO LOVE TO LAUGH , BUT DEEP INSIDE , ITS KILLING ME ,. I WANT TO THANK , MDM FADELINAH , MY 3F MALAY PEEPS , ESPECIALLY RAB AND MIA AND MIERAKAY. THANK YOU :'( HAIS , SOMETIMES I WISH I COULD GIVE UP , BUT I KNOW I CAN'T .
