Its been weeks i had not update , you know the situation right? Life for me had been great , exciting , fun & right now , i feel so upset . The causes that i've made , i could not re-pay nor play it back . cause if i do it would be a big mess . Friday night , cousins came over , there were tears . We cousind really knew it would be or will be hard for us to survive in the future . Education means alot to us . Knowing that the questions that were aksed , is so hard to be answered . You always knew that your parents , family , cousins is always right beside you , being ready to face it with you , hearing your problems , we knew it but we did't realize it . Encouraging , supporting you in any desicion you made . That night , it can never be forgotten . The words are all spilled out , till we cry . We know that in order to survive , it takes lots of sacrifices. Nenek and Atok had done very well ti keep the family alive , giving us the love . Though we know we need to push ourselves to the limits , we would suffer , but in the end , its ours to take . I love my cousins . They were always there to lend their ears , hands to help , having a great sincre heart ,. That night , all of us pull out our socks , take a deep breathe , having guts to tell the family . We know that being a teenagers is hard , handling problems like , friends , relationships . Hoping that you would not turn the wrong way , getting influence when you know you should'nt . Anyway , my birthday is in 2 weeks and ya A day .

bye.